Childhoods Lost

Ravilious went to our school. He breathed
its woody polished air; tumbled down its stairs;
lined up outside its masters’ rooms. Enjoyed
the spell of Latin, of pigeons on the roof, the careless
slap of balls on wood, of hands across the face.

This and none of this we shared. For when I went,
he was long dead, gone into a wartime ocean,
into patterns upon lost water.

At 12, he was escaping to the Downs, sketching 
Wilmington’s Long Man, marvelling at stringy 
biplanes that danced the air. At his age, I helped 
weed its painted stones that pretended to be chalk, 
or was lost in Airfix or a Frog. I would wait for trains 
to pass the gates that kept our Hampden Park
From his, but he would be caught in their steam
– progress creeping from the city to the sea.

Our homes are all that’s left of those lost childhoods.
His was brand new and forever bears
his blue-plaqued name. Ours now boasts a car port
in the garden, I believe. But then, unknowing close
to such vision, skill and art. And I am
going back, to nothing of importance happening.

For his wedding day he smiles, steps from his water 
colour shield, becomes a husband to the man.
Biography replaces brush strokes, becomes a work of art
we all can own. If pictures are beyond our reach, 
then life is what is only ours. Not cunning bands of
Shade, perspectives, scenes of bedrooms, shops of
Curiosity, trees with winter branches lightning
Stab the air, and warship’s dazzle, screws 
and submarines. Only a lost plane in an Iceland
sea, and a death to share that brings us down.

 

The Fifth Wave

Walk on any beach, but take the edge
Where the smooth sand lines up the resilience of our realm
With the resourceful sea. Admire the encroachment 
Of property on nature. Or despair at the arrogance of wealth
As it towers into the steel of the sky.
Notice the distant reef as it restrains an agitated surf
The spent energy swells towards your feet
And gently grasps your ankles and slips past
Faintly disturbing the balance you enjoy.
Then heed the tracks you’ve made through
The plucky sand. All trace of you is gone
After the fifth wave.

A Bank of Green Willow

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The march from Shropshire to the Somme, how long?
At least two hundred years of industry and revolution,
while time twists like country lanes, till distance shortens
to a sniper’s bullet. I am back a hundred years myself,
with a music mag found on a Yorkshire market stall.
The sun is early, hot and kind upon the morning,
and A Shropshire Lad is playing.  A call of peace and youth,
of promise. A world where wealth and industry
brings longer lives and hopes and opportunities,
where steam and speed connect. George Butterworth,
its son. His father manages the LNER. He goes
to Oxford where dreamy academe invents
a past of fragrant summers, kings of chivalry
and perfect love; where folksy melodies are revived
as their words and harmonies are lost in city
smoke. George does more than this – he rescues
from uncertainty and doubt, Vaughan Williams.
Makes him write his London Symphony – even
reinventing it when a German publisher loses
it on the very eve of war. What service to us all.

A bugle call away from dark, where no light falls,
where men’s names wait for carving on memorials,
and here is Butterworth, his early works torn up
lest he should not return, and they are unrevised.
A year in uniform, defending what he heard and sang
against the threat of Beethoven and Brahms,
of Uber Alles. Stands in a trench in France, he and his men
have dug, have named for him, and does not
hear the bullet coming, coming, coming.

They bury him where he falls, in his trench’s wall.
No time for service, or an anthem played. His body’s
never found, no last post played, lost like
so many dreamy lads. A pointless stinking strip
of charnel ground. Somewhere else a plaque or two recalls
his sweet-for-summer name, his Military Cross
adorns a wall. His music, rare and lovely,
plays across a car park as I wait. So many things
to honour. Thank you, George, for leaving some
to promise more than sweetness, tears.

Settling for Dallas

It was a bold move for new woke times.
Beset by immigration paranoia on all sides,
our shambling government appoints
The son and daughter of the second generation
to lead the party and the policy on holding back the flood.

Who better, having mums and dads slipped
in below the radar, and made good?
You can’t be racist if you’re doing it to your own.
You are, to coin a controversial phrase,
Whiter than white.

So here’s to Mrs Braverman, whose job it is to steer this ship.
A Mauritius mum, a Goan Kenyan dad, a Jewish husband
who managed for Mercedes Benz. She is a friend to all.
Credentials open doors like credit cards.

So draw the line and banish cares.
Give those desperate to come the chance
to grow under African skies.
Their gain – and what is it to us?
So British. So very Daily Mail.

Like turning Sue Ellen to Suella –
we all can turn against a mother’s choice
– to travel to a foreign land, to steal,
a favourite name from trashy soaps.

COMMON GROUND

Lines near Westminster Bridge

Two men of bronze, in diagonal corners.
Between them, earth, bared of grass
from the late queen’s funeral crowd;
or a protest army; or tourists ebbing
towards white stone, scraped clean
of grime, or blood. Churchill: close to
the House he charmed with lisping growls,
a stubborn lurch with stick, and faltering
reputation bubbling. His back, hunched
as if Plantagenet unhorsed, is turned away.
And then Mandela: arms outstretched, smiling,
reaching for different futures from the possible.
His rainbow land retreats from promises.

Words, their stock in trade, unheard
against the hum and strain of traffic
snarled at lights. More statues strike
claims to gratitude, each gathering in
their places, the tyrannies enriched
and buried in our past. Ghandi, dhotied,
his bike-wheel specs focusing
on poverty and renunciation. India, unfettered,
makes way through butchery and murder.
Smuts, our boyhood nickname for a Smith
of any kind, conjoining empire and war.
And on through Empire’s fine etcetras.

And then behind the fence, protecting myths
from all us passers-by, two men in uniform
discuss the weather, to by-pass time.
White copper, and an Asian guy
from some private army, they laugh
and gossip, making up for history’s old
stones, and a new future in the sun.

London, September 2022