Spaceman

In Memory
Professor Stephen Hawking
1942-2018

This morning, I struggle with the scientist
who’s died in me. An inner man of infinite surprise,
whose life curtailed and mounted on a jest
of angles, rods, pads, batteries and moving
parts, had come to be the voice of possibility.
But for a lack of mental resolution, maths
and methodology he made physicist my goal.
He set a world that saw itself as split, as one.
Propelled by force beyond beginning and itself
I move through many spaces on the way to work.

Already, he’s a myth beyond the stars. My students
talk of nothing else – the trapped man, freed,
or joke that he may not be dead, but
captive of his chair, eternally. The voice goes
on, beyond – a thousand years they say his work,
those sci-fi robotones he liked and lived behind,
will last. A speck in time for what he taught –
forever – for the man now neurone free.

14.3.2018

 

 

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London’s Calling

The London Shaksper knows has nothing but its arts
to recommend it. Walls tumble, Roman but disguised.
Buildings shamble, shouldering space into the corners,
slunken, barely breathing, undisclosed. Ditches
hold dark waters, dead men, dogs, and horses.
But professions fill the streets. Alehouses, arcane
with chatter, spread alchemy that fires minds or baffles –
some racked by fevers of dissent, all undiminished
by the latest plague. Breeched and gartered, with
their ruffs and fashions, each man’s horizon beckons.

They enter shining-faced through gates and towers,
in awe of palaces that pierce the headlong clouds.
They join the guilds of crafts and tradesmen, then revel
in the tenderness of brewers, the pliancy of whores.
And if they do not fit with someone’s pleasure,
or hue and cry has marked them down as thief,
then London has the time and space for execution,
delivering rituals of death and torture in the street.

For each last performance, crowds assemble –
Screams raise murmurs from approving parish greens.
You hardly need a license for this calling – a rope,
a knife, a butcher’s cleaver honed for sinew
and for neck; a pot to boil a severed head.

Faith comes from an English alter, though alteration
runs deep in families, cuts like a river through each town.
Driven to inaction by such contradiction, escape
To secular intriguing and alliance is the worldly choice.
Who cares where souls are sold, to whom?
The churches, graveyards and the charnel houses
turn no one down who needs them – a simpler choice,
now purgatory no longer needs an honest coin.

So enters Shakespear to this pageant – its courts
and sermons, its pushing crowds and pleas.
Ignores its water-taxi transport to the tower,
its bridge of shops and chapels and spiked heads.

He’s already found a calling as indentured actor,
touring yards and inns on wagons. In thrall,
in love, he’s left a wife he’s barely knowing,
a son whose life is all he has that’s future’s call.

The south bank makes him welcome with its stench
and roaring laughter – its theatres of cruelty and pleasure,
of bears and dogs and teeth and growling, of women
in their brothels bringing passions from the Lord.

And this creaking octagon of sky and timber
is the busy cockpit of his days. His world’s
a rise-above-it stage, a fusty labyrinth of rooms –
for tiring, learning, farting – and a tiny counting
house to make the pennies pay the terms.

First, it’s all asides and whispers. A place for waiting
in the wings. He learns to walk, to pause, remember –
He takes the parts, the many accents; plays the girls
with sly seduction and a boyish charm; pretends
to love and die the soldier. Darkens voices,
takes on fools, and laughs with fathead kings.

He beards, is bearded, has time for all the seven
ages – and rescues lines from anywhere he finds.
He steals from stoney tales the lustrous sparkle
of the diamond. He betters words, and makes them walk
in live men’s shoes. A snapper at the heels
of trifles, he twists plotlines from old failures, revives
the sturdy bloodlines of revenge. With aching sides
of play and punning, his people fill the stage.

Beneath the flags and fortunes of outrageous
princes, dukes live whose ignorance abounds.
Fates already sealed, and chances too well-taken,
his metaphysics marks them down – departing
through the emptiness of dreams, of jealousy and rage.

And then there is the wildwood, out there beyond
The Arden of adventure, of the furthest rutted lane.
Beneath its fruits and branches hangs the heavy
moonlight, where webfoots skim the leaves, the dewy
grasses. There the silky transformations, the beasts
that sing, the girls who take on men and thus outwit
themselves, their betters. Sometimes the zephyrs
roar like tempests, and leys are rocks that break
and tame the torments of the sea. There, judgement
stands accused. We learn to love what most
we seem to hate. Good ends are servants to our needs.

Such forces he has grasped – his pen takes his hand,
his head, his heart. By day his voice intoxicates
the crowd who drink him down. By night, lit by
a candle and the stars, his inkhorn empties
as his thirst for magic falls and flowers on the page.

And round him is his city, his Globe, his Rose,
his Company of Kings. At court, a virgin queen,
and then a Scot, are bright with terrors of their own –
they are as nothing to the player monarchs, the princes
with their hands and daggers rich in bucket blood,
poisoned with self doubt and lying to deceive.

The runnels fill with poets. Traitors’ heads
rot silent on their posts. London boasts them all
as faithful servants whose time has come, who went.
And Shakesper clears them as distractions –
he spits, he splits his quill, and celebrates.

Lincolnshire – January 2018

The Lebanese Restaurant

When the family came to Berwick they left
their Lebanon behind them, wherever it had been.
They settled in their restaurant, perched above theTweed,
feet only from the bridge that Edward opened as the king,
before he fled from conflict of his own. They brought
the fragrance of a culture that imbues the streets
of Asia with its fragrances, its noise of conversations,
its men with serious faces and with cigarettes,
and women, dark-eyed, emerging from the veil,
into the silky glamour of their headscarfs. They brought
the name “Delicious” and waited for the customers to come.

No one escapes, even in our chilly outback northern town:
the bomb and counter bomb; the threat of knives,
and vests that grip their owners in a one way journey
to murder and oblivion. Thus seized with vengeance
of his own, an unnamed crusader of hatred and despair
hammered through their windows, left our own dishonoured
flag across the damage that he’d caused. As if Tabbouleh
and Baba Ganoush showed support for blood and terror.

The blooms and fragrances of war that graced the boulevards,
the shattered streets and concrete scattered through
the thoroughfares of life; a land where years of war,
a hundred thousand dead, and yet more disappeared;
these stories, numberless, brought them to our lives.

Their restaurant is now closed, the “Lazeez” sign is gone.
Which part of that diaspora that spread out from
Bierut, from Druze and Maronite, from Israeli shells,
and rockets launched by Hezbollah – which marked a trail
across the eastern skies and seas from Canaan
and those proud Phoenician galleys, we will never know.

Berwick-upon-Tweed, November 2017

[“lazeez” means “delicious”]

Rorschach Test

The paint in the alley is newly spilt,
a white explosion on the stone.
As if cream or milk had escaped
a farmer’s roughened hand,
except its 5 litre tin stands upright,
lidless in its guilt. The bright meniscus
of the freshly minted pool lies
waiting for a careless foot.

This blot of white reverses all
those inky splats that shaken pens
in classrooms make. An inner
monster from the painted dark
stares blankly, pointless, back at me.

Later, the tin has gone, and someone’s
scraped the giant sightless eyeball
to a patch. Its sticky freshness beckons.
A man emerges from a door,
gingerly steps round. We share
the knowledge of a close escape
as drying pigments grip the stone.

No chance that it will
disappear with time. This day,
this accident that also brought
me here, will mark this path
long, long after I am gone.

 

Carlisle, September 2017

Conjunctions

An art book brings together
“The Last Judgement” and
“The Garden of Terrestrial Delights”.

Reality interposes
the thicknesses of many walls,
two nations,
and the Mediterranean Sea.

When the book shuts,
Bosch and Michaelangelo meet
face to face
in darkness.
Each separated
by mere molecules of air
instead of purpose,
place, and execution.

If art could ever come alive in books
and colour cross
when page caresses page
those fantasies
of veiled exploited flesh
would surely mingle.
The golden musculature
might run to blushing skin
and unsacrificed desire.

The Sistine Chapel’s roof
might turn itself into defeat –
and Popes themselves
beneath their robes
feel some confusion.

January 1990